Have you ever realized just how capable we really are? We really don't give ourselves credit for what we can actually do... in fact, most of the time, we talk ourselves out of doing things because we are chickens. We are too scared... too worried.... too much in control to take a risk. But the past month or so I've realized a lot about me... what I really can do.
If you would've asked me a month ago if I could...
survive a month without internet...
eliminate meat and gluten from my diet
move to a town that doesn't have a mall, a ritas,or even a blockbuster within an hour
survive on a minimum wage part time job
be able to cope without use my right hand
I would've laughed at you and told you that I was not made for those circumstances... but apparently, I was... and I am surviving! And actually, I'm doing pretty good :) I've adapted to the use of a phone and phone book to stay in touch....I've started finding fish, rice and potatoes to taste simply amazing, I've become a large financial supporter of the local chapter of SuperWalmart, I've cut back on unneccesaries and my left hand is becoming dominant. We may be resistant to change, but once we are forced into it, if we keep a positive outlook, we actually do much better than we could have ever anticipated.
While I would've never chosen this particular path, I've accepted it and I am actually enjoying the new pace. I am determined to keep going because I can't wait to see the beautiful scenery ahead!!!
Friday, July 31, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
MRS AND MS
The past few weeks have been a rollercoaster of feelings, emotions and a massive amount of travel.
Married life so far has been incredibly hectic. I am finally down South and we are just about settled into our cute little house. I am learning new things about Russ everyday and for the most part, love each one of those things. Still trying to learn to accept the toilet seat left open thing... but at least I'm learning patience :) I drpped my brush in the open toilet seat the other day, but laughed it off. And soaked it in some disinfectant. haha.
Another thing I'm dealing with is sharing the bed. haha. I'm such a bed hog and so is Russ, so we spend all night rolling into each other and stealing back the covers from each other. I see the purchase of a king bed in the near future!
But we'll get used to it and the pros (like having someone to share chores with.. hehe) outweigh the cons.
The other battle I'm fighting is rather ironic to me.....The day after our wedding, I began getting a numb sensation in the back of my head, but brushed it off as my hair being "sore" after being pinned up all day the day before. However, it turned into numbness in my jaw, and right arm. I again brushed it off as a pinched nerve and couldn't wait to get back to my chiropractor in Maryland. After two visits to him and little relief, I wasn't so sure it was something simple, so I went to the doctor. She said it was probably a pinched nerve but she wasn't sure. WHAT? You are a doctor, can't you do better than that? It seriously irks me when doctors are so complacent. I don't go to the doctor at the drop of a hat, so it just bothers me when they brush off everything I say. Anyway, then I started getting chest pains and numbness in my rib cage, at which point I went to the emergency room. After pricking me, brusing me and scanning me, they said maybe a pinched nerve but they also referred me to a neurologist. At this point I was four days away from moving, but fit in an appointment anyway and some MRI's. Three days later I got a call from the neurologist that after looking at the scans, there were several spots on my brain and spine that were consistent with multiple sclerosis (MS). I still say I haven't had time to process this, but I find it very ironic that I finally got my MRS. and God gave me back the MS..... in a different form. haha. (I'm trying to find the humor and positive in all of this!)
Seriously though, I am thankful for the cause of numbness being found so quickly and for it not being more serious than it is. I am thankful for my wonderful husband as well... he has been very supportive and understanding of my frustrations. I have very limited use of my right hand, I tire very easily and the past few days I've found myself stumbling over my words and my feet. haha. But I've always done that, I just have an excuse for it now!!!
Well my left hand is dying from typing all of this, so, I'm off to read some more about MS. I am not going down without a fight and doing everything in my power to help myself and others!!
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
Married life so far has been incredibly hectic. I am finally down South and we are just about settled into our cute little house. I am learning new things about Russ everyday and for the most part, love each one of those things. Still trying to learn to accept the toilet seat left open thing... but at least I'm learning patience :) I drpped my brush in the open toilet seat the other day, but laughed it off. And soaked it in some disinfectant. haha.
Another thing I'm dealing with is sharing the bed. haha. I'm such a bed hog and so is Russ, so we spend all night rolling into each other and stealing back the covers from each other. I see the purchase of a king bed in the near future!
But we'll get used to it and the pros (like having someone to share chores with.. hehe) outweigh the cons.
The other battle I'm fighting is rather ironic to me.....The day after our wedding, I began getting a numb sensation in the back of my head, but brushed it off as my hair being "sore" after being pinned up all day the day before. However, it turned into numbness in my jaw, and right arm. I again brushed it off as a pinched nerve and couldn't wait to get back to my chiropractor in Maryland. After two visits to him and little relief, I wasn't so sure it was something simple, so I went to the doctor. She said it was probably a pinched nerve but she wasn't sure. WHAT? You are a doctor, can't you do better than that? It seriously irks me when doctors are so complacent. I don't go to the doctor at the drop of a hat, so it just bothers me when they brush off everything I say. Anyway, then I started getting chest pains and numbness in my rib cage, at which point I went to the emergency room. After pricking me, brusing me and scanning me, they said maybe a pinched nerve but they also referred me to a neurologist. At this point I was four days away from moving, but fit in an appointment anyway and some MRI's. Three days later I got a call from the neurologist that after looking at the scans, there were several spots on my brain and spine that were consistent with multiple sclerosis (MS). I still say I haven't had time to process this, but I find it very ironic that I finally got my MRS. and God gave me back the MS..... in a different form. haha. (I'm trying to find the humor and positive in all of this!)
Seriously though, I am thankful for the cause of numbness being found so quickly and for it not being more serious than it is. I am thankful for my wonderful husband as well... he has been very supportive and understanding of my frustrations. I have very limited use of my right hand, I tire very easily and the past few days I've found myself stumbling over my words and my feet. haha. But I've always done that, I just have an excuse for it now!!!
Well my left hand is dying from typing all of this, so, I'm off to read some more about MS. I am not going down without a fight and doing everything in my power to help myself and others!!
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
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